Saturday, April 17, 2010
Very tough day! :(
Very excited on my way to Burlington. Then we began our warm ups and physical testing. Very tough time breathing. Used my puffer more than I ever had to before. I finished all the tasks of the morning. Not very proud of myself. Cried all the way home - and it's a long drive. Maybe people were right. Perhaps I am too old to have fun. The hardest part was not that I was last, it was the realization that I am so out of shape. How could I have let this happen? Injuries, illness, disease - have they finally defeated me? It seems that some other power keeps dishing it out to me and I keep taking it. I always have to come back...from the bottom. As the years go by, the journey from bottom to top gets harder and harder. Can I do it? I'm having my doubts, but I also know that I won't let things defeat me. Depression....oh you can feel it creeping up your skin, along your spine and to your head. That feeling of no hope. I need support...thank Susie and Meredith for being there today, keeping me going. It's a rough ride, like going paddling upstream against a strong current. Lots of hard work, confidence building and personal successes will get me there. It's day 1. The hardest day of them all. The first day to a new life. (now it's time for recovery)
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Oh Sharon, you brought me to tears reading your blog. Sunday was a hard day for everyone involved. We were all huffing and puffing and we felt and still feel the pain of our hard work.
ReplyDeleteYou should be VERY proud of yourself!!!
You showed up and completed all the tasks and yes you challenged yourself :-)
I bet you are going to get up tomorrow and think about the homework that you will complete.
The first day is always the hardest, there will be other challenges along the way that will push our limits BUT we are there for each other. You have been through injuries, illness, disease, but you are back and those who are telling you that you're too old to have fun are the ones who are letting life just pass them by. You have chosen not to join them and we are soooooooo proud of you!!!
Wow! My hand placed itself on my heart as soon as I started reading your blog. Tears came to my eyes. I wish I could have wrapped my arms around you.
ReplyDeleteI AM SOOOOOO PROUD OF YOU. You did awesome. You really did. You did it. That is all that matters. Your willingness and desire to be there. It was day one. Honeslty Sharon,I thought I was going to cry after the sprinting, after the burpees and after the stairs. We are all in the same place. We will all gain strentgh through this. Physical and mental.
Depression...lets kick it in the Butt, HARD. We will rise above.
Whomever said that you were too old......WRONG!!!!!!! You are not old and you can do this. I am behind you all the way. We are all behind you.
Like you said...OLD CAN WAIT, and it will
xoxo
WOMAN!!! WOW!
ReplyDeleteYou finished all the things that we did...and you weren't proud of yourself!?? Come on now! Just moving through it is half the battle...the strength and mind frame will come later.
Just remember sweet thing, "Tough times don't last! Tough people do!"
See you next week tough stuff ;)